My Berlin Summer, (MF/f slavery) by Dana Williams From:
danawilliams7979@yahoo.com (DW)
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My Berlin Summer Chapter 1: The Invitation
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I suppose it was all my own fault. I should have known what I was getting into.
Or maybe I did know, and that was why I got into it. Sometimes it's hard to say
what we do of our own conscious volition, and what we are somehow drawn into
doing. But it happened all the same.
It was the summer after my junior year in college, when the world still lay
before me. I was living in Berlin, in Kreuzberg, and like any good American
college student, I spent my nights in Prenzlauer Berg, in what had once been
East Berlin. I was nominally in Berlin to learn German and to study art history,
but really I was there to have fun. And fun I had. It was late June, only three
weeks after I had arrived, and I had fallen in with a group of German students
whom I idolized - older, better traveled, more world-weary, they seemed the very
embodiment of sophistication to a girl from California, abroad for the first
time.
My real idol, though I tried my best not to admit it, was tall, black-haired,
leather-clad Cristina, a philosophy student and probably a lesbian. Despite my
considerably shorter stature, chestnut-brown hair, and awkward tendency to smile
when Cristina would have scowled, I fantasized about being like her - hard,
cutting, and supremely self-confident. When she invited me to do something with
her, I would invariably forget whatever plans I had to trail along with her
loyally.
So it was one day when she called my apartment and asked - no, told - me to come
have breakfast with her. We were eating croissants and drinking black coffee at
an outdoor table when she pushed her copy of Zitty across the table to me,
pointed at an advertisement, and said, "What do you think of that?"
I looked at the ad. It was a small black-and-white picture of a woman on hands
and knees, wearing only the manacles that joined her wrists and ankles, a metal
collar, and a leash, her lips pressed against a whip being held above her face
by an unseen master. I think my whole body must have quivered when I saw that
picture. It was not the first time I had wondered what it would be like to be
that woman - naked, chained, and completely at the mercy of a firm master. Or
mistress. Here I was looking at the image of my fantasy.
I shook my head to clear my eyes and read the ad. It advertised a "Bondage Ball"
at a large East Berlin club - the next evening. I had heard dimly of this sort
of thing - a vast, tumultuous frenzy of leather-clad masters and slaves groping
each other to loud techno music - and had even, in my more libertine moments,
imagined that I might summon up the courage to go. But now that it was before me
...
"Well? I see that you are interested." Cristina's British-German accent brought
me back to the breakfast table.
"Um ... it seems interesting. I've never been to something like that, but I've
often thought of going." That, at least, was true.
Cristina gave me a long, hard look. I wondered if she could see into my eyes and
see a naked slave hiding behind them, if my inner nature were so evident. I
lowered my eyes, before realizing that was exactly what a slave would do. I
blushed, waiting for her to say something. "Master or a slave?" she finally
asked.
My body screamed out for me to proclaim my slavehood, my desire to submit. But
my inhibitions were still too strong. I had not yet learned that girls such as I
were not allowed inhibitions. "I don't know ... it just seems interesting," I
managed to mumble.
"Well, if you want to go with me, you'll have to go as my slave," Cristina said
cheerfully. The words sent a thrill through my body from deep inside. I realized
that I was aroused just thinking about the possibility of going to a club as a
woman's slave. I wondered what I would have to do - what I would be allowed to
wear, whether I would be collared, or even leashed, whether I would have to
serve her as a slave ... "Well, what do you think?" Her voice brought me back to
reality.
"Are you serious?" I was just trying to buy time to think, but instantly I
regretted it ... would she withdraw the offer? Had I missed my chance to play
out my fantasy? "I mean, I'm open to anything," I said, trying to keep the
possibility open.
"OK, I have to go," Cristina said, standing up. My stomach felt empty for a
moment. "Think about it. If you want to be my slave, call me by tomorrow morning
so we have time to get you something to wear."
"OK, I'll think about it," I said, doing my best to sound assured and, I was
sure, failing miserably.
Once Cristina was out of sight, I turned back to the advertisement for the party
and considered the enticing, naked slave in the picture, her eyes closed as she
lingeringly, tenderly kissed the supple leather of the whip to which she was
subject. Or at least, that's what I was thinking. I tried to imagine what it
would be like, forced to my hands and knees, my wrists and ankles joined by
short lengths of chain, my head pulled upward by the pull on my chain leash,
completely nude, open to the visual and physical exploitation of a master. I
felt heat between my thighs. I tried to imagine what the club would be like.
Most likely, I expected, it would be disappointingly tame - a crowd of yuppies
playing at dominance and submission, spoiled brats in fancy leather costumes,
mild arousal destined for disappointment. But the possibilities ... Perhaps I
would be stripped naked before a crowd of people, forced to crawl on the floor
and beg to lick their feet. Perhaps I would be made to dance naked before men,
desperately trying to interest them in my body until one deigned to make use of
it, only then to dance again, until all the men were satisfied. Perhaps I would
be thrown over a table, my legs tied apart, to be casually used by any man who
so chose.
I knew then that I would go to that club. It was only a matter of gathering up
the courage to say that to Cristina.
I gathered up my things and hurried home to my apartment, visions of myself as a
slave girl passing through my mind. On my knees, bent over, licking the feet of
a master; standing on my toes, my wrists bound high above my head, awaiting the
touch of the lash; naked, on an auction block, forced to display my charms
openly to a crowd of bidders; kneeling before a man, hands bound behind my back,
serving his pleasure. I tried to banish the visions from my mind, but they kept
coming back. I had had these thoughts before, but never with this intensity.
Before, being a slave girl had been but an idle fantasy, one of the themes I
used occasionally when bored and seeking arousal. I would get a mild charge out
of seeing a picture of a woman in bondage, but little more; it never seemed a
plausible reality. Now, at least for this moment, it seemed my destiny.
Cristina had unleashed a flood of emotions whose force I had never suspected.
They were sure to be disappointed at the club itself, I expected, but until
then, I would give myself up to my fantasy.
By the time I arrived at my small walkup apartment, I was damp between the
thighs. I debated momentarily whether it was appropriate for a slave girl to
pleasure herself, but ultimately could not resist the temptation, closing my
eyes and imagining the strong, powerful master who was forcing himself upon me,
raping my body with his manhood, using me mercilessly for his pleasure, then
casting me into the arms of another, without a second thought for the girl he
had just ravished. I felt their plunging thrusts as they took pleasure in my
vulnerable, open, enslaved softness, impressing on me my degraded condition,
nothing more than a vessel for their amusement and relaxation. I came as I
imagined only a slave girl could, completely uninhibited, without regard for
dignity or propriety. When the imaginary warriors had finished with their
plaything, she was a small, spent bundle of slave flesh lying exhausted on the
now-damp sheets of her summer-in-Europe futon.
Deeply embarrassed, and thankful that no one could see my condition, I took a
shower and decided there was no way I could go the club.
The next morning, however, I found myself dialing Cristina's number.
Several times I made it partway through the digits before hanging up. When I
finally had the courage to press the last button, I found myself praying for her
answering machine. After five rings, I began to relax. Then her voice answered
the phone. "Hello?"
"Uh, hi, Cristina, this is Jennifer."
"Who?"
"You know, Jennifer."
"Oh, yeah. I'm sorry. What do you want?"
"Well, about going to that club tonight, ..."
"What club?"
"You know, the one with that event tonight." Silence. "The Bondage Ball."
"Oh, yeah. What about it?"
"Well, yesterday, you said that maybe we would go. And ... well, I think I would
be interested in seeing what it's like."
Silence. "You want to go as my slave?"
Now it was my turn to be silent. "Yes," I whispered. Although I was only
agreeing to accompany her in the role of a submissive to a club, I knew that
inside I was admitting something much deeper and more significant.
"You'll be my slave tonight?"
"Yes." Silence. "I'll be your slave." There. I had said it. It was out in the
world, and someone had heard it. I was not what people thought me to be - a
smart, well-educated, independent, free woman. Instead, I was something else -
a naked slave girl asking for the collar of a master. I felt the now-familiar
surge of arousal as I contemplated the idea. There was silence on the other end.
Perhaps Cristina was wondering if I would make an acceptable slave - wondering
how I would look chained nude at her feet, or how skillful I could be with my
mouth and hands, or what my resale value could be, appropriately displayed to
assembled masters.
"Well, OK," she said. "Come over to my apartment around nine tonight."
"Thank you," I said, before realizing it was completely inappropriate.
Or maybe it was appropriate that a slave should thank her mistress. "What
should I wear?" I had visions of bikinis, miniskirts, sheath dresses, ...
"Oh, don't worry about that," Cristina answered. "I'll find you something
appropriate."
"OK. Well, see you tonight."
"See you," she said. "Get plenty of rest." And then she hung up.
I resisted the urge to tear off my clothes and submit myself once again to the
use of my imaginary masters, this time resolving to deny myself until tonight. A
slave's body, after all, is not her own; it is up to the masters when, or even
if at all, she may enjoy its use. Or at least that's how I imagined it must be.
I spent the day wandering around Schoneberg, looking into bookstores and
sneaking glances at the "art" photography books showing pictures of bound, naked
women. I wondered which of the models I would most resemble tonight when I was
myself exhibited to an audience of people I had never met. I returned to my
apartment, stripped myself naked, buckled a belt around my neck to take the
place of a collar, and posed before my full-length mirror, wondering what that
audience would see in me. Would they see just an American college girl playing a
role, soon to return to college and law school and a future in mergers and
acquisitions? Or would they see something else - a true slave girl, desperate to
please, seeking a master to put her in her place, to take away her freedom and
impose his will on her, to claim her naked beauty for his own ruthless use? I
regarded my body in the mirror. Perhaps men would find me of interest, even if I
was not tall, thin, and blonde; I knelt before the mirror, knees spread widely,
shoulder pulled back to project my breasts forward, lips half open in
anticipation ... Yes, I thought a man could find that wanton slut of interest -
perhaps the firmness of her full breasts, or the warmth of her mouth, or the
curves of her hips and thighs, or the softness of her belly. Or a woman might
find her of interest, might find her worthy of a collar and a chain and long
nights rendering intimate service with her lips and tongue. I had never been
particularly attracted to women, but I knew that it was a master I sought, and
whether that master were a man or woman was less important than that he or she
would use me as what I was, a plaything to be used and abused, to be enjoyed and
cast aside and forgotten. I was almost unbearably aroused looking at myself in
the mirror and imagining the indignities and humiliations I might be suffering
in only a few hours.
I wondered what Cristina would make me wear tonight - perhaps a latex bondage
suit, perhaps a simple string bikini, perhaps nothing but a collar and chains. I
hoped she would let me wear something - I had never been naked in public and,
despite my attraction to it, was simultaneously terrified at the thought. I
wondered if I should dress up somehow to go to her apartment. Did she expect a
brazen, begging slut, or a shy, vulnerable slave girl? Or just an ordinary
American college student, whom she would transform to suit her tastes?
I decided that, since she had not asked me to dress the part of a slave, to do
so would only draw attention to my inner yearnings that I was still not prepared
to admit to anyone. So as the dusk began to fall, I pulled on my customary
uniform - jeans, sandals, and a snug but generally modest halter top. It was too
warm for a sweater or jacket.
My heart pounding in my chest, I took a taxi to Cristina's apartment, wondering
if the driver could sense my unease, could strip me naked with his eyes and see
me for the slave I would soon be. I was so distracted I almost forgot to collect
my change until he shouted after me as I was walking away. I opened the outer
door of Cristina's building, tried to take a deep breath, failed, and pushed the
button for her apartment. The door buzzed, I pushed it, and I was inside.
Cristina opened the door and gave me a searching once-over from head to toe. I
was desperately afraid to catch a glint of disappointment in her eye. Should I
have worn something more revealing, more feminine? "I figured you would dress me
the way you wanted ..." I stammered.
"Of course, my dear," Cristina said. "But first, we have to make sure you want
to go through with this."
"Yes, I do."
"For this evening, you agree to be my willing, obedient slave, to obey me
unquestioningly in all things, to serve me and anyone I designate in any way I
choose at an instant's command?"
I swallowed. I thought for an instant about what might be commanded of me. I was
no virgin, but at the same time I was hardly experienced, and could only imagine
what a ruthless master might demand of my body. I saw myself being taken
simultaneously by two or even three men ... "Yes. I agree," I whispered.
Cristina smiled. "Of course, if at any time you wish to back out of this
agreement, you may. I will simply pack you into a taxi and send you back home.
But otherwise, you are mine."
"I'm yours." I tried to smile to show bravery, but only managed to blush and
lower my eyes.
"All right, let's get started. First, you will only speak when spoken to. You
will address any person you see, including me, as master or mistress - even
other slaves. Is that clear?"
"Yes ... yes, mistress," I said.
"Good." She reached behind her, picked up a scrap of cloth, and threw it at me.
"Now take off all your clothes and put that on." I paused. "You can use the
bathroom to change."
Breathing a deep sigh of relief, I took the garment into the bathroom and closed
the door. What was I getting myself into? I looked at the clothing she had given
me. It was a simple, white negligee, slightly translucent, hardly there at all.
In it I would be next to naked before hundreds of strangers. Well, there was no
turning back now. I took off all my clothes, pulled it over my head, and looked
in the mirror. It hung from two thin straps on my shoulders, covered only the
bottom half of my breasts, and came only a fraction of the way down my thighs.
The tips of my breasts pressed against and showed clearly through the thin white
fabric. A deep cut exposed my back all the way to my waist. If I bent over, my
most intimate regions would come clearly into view of anyone standing behind me.
Nothing I had imagined - not even complete nudity - could be as humiliating as
this scanty garment. It was simply begging to be torn away, inviting men to
strip me naked and have me as the slave I was. I thought momentarily of backing
out of the bargain. But I was too close to realizing a fantasy that was too dear
to me to turn aside now. Besides, a real slave would have no such choice. She
would simply have to wear whatever her masters deigned to throw her or, failing
that, nothing.
I pulled the garment down as far as it would go on my thighs, pulling it more
tightly across my breasts in the process, opened the door, and walked out in
front of Cristina. My breath caught in my throat when I saw what she was holding
- a short riding crop. "Not bad," she said. "Turn around. Display yourself for
me." Not sure what that meant, I turned slowly, standing as straight as I could,
pulling back my shoulders and pushing my breasts forward for her to review. I
knew she could see them clearly; I hoped she liked them. That was all a slave
could hope for - to be pleasing to her master.
I was again standing before her. "Kneel," she commanded, pushing down on my left
shoulder with the riding crop. "Down on your heels," she ordered. I complied
eagerly, finally able to live out my fantasy, to demonstrate my submission to my
master. I kept my knees pressed tightly together, afraid that opening them would
expose myself completely to her gaze. Simply kneeling had already drawn the thin
fabric even higher on my thighs.
"Spread your knees," Cristina said simply. I looked up at her and swallowed.
"Now, slut," she continued. I opened them cautiously. "Wider, slut!" she
ordered. "A slave must always open herself to the uses of her master." I spread
my knees until my thighs made a right angle between them. The hem of the garment
I wore was balanced precariously across the tops of my thighs. I put my hands
palms down on my now-bare thighs, pulled back my shoulders, thrust out my
breasts, and looked up again at my mistress, a slave hoping desperately for
acceptance. I hoped she liked what she saw - an eager slave who would do
anything to please her. It was what I was.
"Not bad," she said, smiling. "Now kiss my whip." She pressed the crop to my
lips. I kissed it hesitantly. "Not like that, slut!" she shouted. "Use your
tongue, take it in your mouth, caress it like your master's body." A shudder
went through my body, imagining that it was instead my imaginary master's
manhood pressed to my lips instead. I closed my eyes, opened my lips, and began
to tongue the crop with a heat and passion that my previous boyfriends would
have been shocked to behold. "Very good, slave," I could hear Cristina saying.
"That is how a slave pleases her master. I think you will do quite nicely." I
felt a surge of warmth course through me when she praised me. Perhaps I would
be a good slave? I wondered why that thought thrilled me so deeply. I wondered
if I should be objecting to Cristina's casual treatment of me, as if I were in
reality nothing but a slave. I wondered if a smart, independent woman would
have bolted to her feet and run from the room. But I realized that such a woman
would never have consented to don the flimsy garment I had willingly put on, to
open her knees so submissively.
Cristina laughed. "You may stop now, slut," she said. I lowered my eyes,
embarrassed. I had been so carried away that I had forgotten what I was doing.
"I think you really enjoyed kissing my whip," she said. "Didn't you?"
"Yes, mistress," I whispered.
"Good. That's how it should be." Cristina then turned and picked something up
off the table behind her. When she turned back to me, I could see what it was -
a heavy, chrome-colored collar, two half-circles attached at a heavy hinge.
"Hold back your hair," she said. I pulled up my long, brown hair and held it up
above my head. She crouched down in front of me and casually snapped the collar
about my neck. The sound of the lock closing filled me with terror. Now I was
truly enslaved to her, for all the world to know. I put my hands to the collar
and felt its smooth, hard, cold surface. I knew nothing I could do could remove
that collar from my neck.
"You look just about ready," Cristina mused, looking over my scantily clad form.
"Just a couple of finishing touches ... Stand up and turn around." I obeyed
immediately. If I were playing a role, I would play it perfectly. "Hands behind
your back." Dreading what was coming next, I complied. I felt the steel
handcuffs lock around my small wrists and ratchet down. I tried to pull my
wrists apart and felt the links of chain joining them go taut. I felt my breasts
strain forward against the thin garment. My hands were bound behind my back
until Cristina chose to release them. I could not even use them to protect my
body from her or anyone else's attentions.
Cristina spun me around to face her. She was holding a long, thin chain. She
reached up to my neck and quickly snapped one end of it onto what must have been
a ring on the front of my collar. I was leashed! I could be led anywhere she
wished, like an animal. And with my hands chained behind my back, a leash
dangling from my collar, my slavery was immediately evident to even the most
casual observer.
"Cristina? ... Mistress? Are you taking me to the club like this?"
My head reeled from the backhanded slap of her leather-gloved hand.
"You are not to speak unless spoken to, slut," she said.
"Yes, mistress," I whispered. "I'm sorry, mistress."
"And yes, I am taking you to the club like this. Any objections and I'll cut
your clothes off and walk you through the streets naked." I repressed a
momentary desire to be led naked through the streets of Berlin. Facing a club
full of strangers in my current state was more than enough for my first night in
bondage.
"Kneel and wait here," Cristina ordered. I obeyed, kneeling back on my heels as
I had been taught, not forgetting to spread my knees as widely as I could. She
gathered a few belongings, including my wallet and keys, and prepared to go.
Then she returned to me, picked up my leash, and said, "Come along, slave." I
got to my feet hesitantly. "You will follow behind me, on my left."
"Yes, mistress," I said, taking up position. I was about to walk out in public
wearing nothing more than a translucent piece of lingerie that exposed more of
my body than it covered, the handcuffs on my wrists, and the steel collar around
my neck. I thought I would die with humiliation. But at the same time, I knew
from the heat between my thighs I was incredibly aroused. If Cristina had
commanded me to kneel before her and serve her with my mouth I would have obeyed
instantly. Instead, she tugged sharply on the leash. Stumbling, I followed her
out the door, down the stairs, and out into the Berlin night.
