That's all you get !

"That's all you get!" Part 2

There are some incidents that I recall in particular, and I guess it will help for me to get some clarity on my situation by describing what happened, and what led to today.

My dates with Amber all but stopped despite my offers to take her out wherever she wanted to go, and she not only made it clear that she was going out with this Joshua character but actually started telling me details of their dates!  It made me terribly uncomfortable and I felt more like her girlfriend than boyfriend, but Amber said she appreciated being able to share these intimate details with me and I was too afraid to displease her by expressing my discomfort.  I guess Amber picked up on my devotion and submissive feelings towards her, and one day when she was talking about how she spent most of the previous weekend with Joshua barely getting out of bed as she described all the hot sex they had I couldn't suppress my cringing expression of agonizing longing and desire for her.  "Hey, what's with that look?  I thought you said your only desire is my happiness and pleasure, but when I share with you my intimate memories you look like you're in pain!"  I quickly apologized and made some excuse about a toothache, relieved when Amber sat back with a smile, but then she looked like she had a thought and said  "Hey, y'know what?  I was just thinking, we don't seem to have as much time to see each other as we used to, and I just thought of a way to fix that!"

My heart leapt with joy at first, but as Amber continued with her "idea" my soul filled with despair.  "So y'know Johnny, like I was sayin', Josh is like the hottest stud I've ever been with and when we get alone it's just like sex heaven, I mean totally, but we're both so into each other we don't seem to get much else done and like completely lose track of the time.  Yeah, an' I do miss seeing your sweet face too, Johnny boy, especially between my thighs, hee hee hee!  So the solution I just came up with is for you to be our little manservant, y'know, just do things for us that we're too 'busy' to do, ha ha ha, if ya know what I mean.  Yup, and you can do our cleanin' and laundry an' shit like that when you're not getting or doing things for us directly.  Whad'dya think, Johnny, it would really be a big help and we'd get to see each other more often, Huh?"

This was incredible!  Amber actually was actually wanting me to become a servant to her and her lover Joshua, with no talk or promise of any benefit to me, sexual or otherwise, beyond the chance to see her more often and help her with her chores.  I was about to confront Amber with the unfairness of the situation she was proposing when she went on to say how grateful she was to have come up with her idea, and how lucky she was to have me for a friend.  Again, I was about to say that I wanted to be much more than a friend, but reconsidered as I could tell from her tone that my best approach to have any hope of salvaging our relationship would be to go along with her plans of serving for her pleasure and benefit.  I told myself this Joshua guy would probably be gone soon, and then I would be in the perfect spot to develop more intimacy into our relationship.

Yes, I felt more and more sure of the wisdom of going along with Ambers' desires for me to serve as I thought long-term, and inside I just knew that when Amber was hurt or mistreated by Joshua as would probably be the case, I'd be there as the loving, caring partner she really wanted!  "Wow Johnny, just talkin' about that hunk of man Josh has got me all worked up, y'know?  C'mon, get your face on my seat cushion, face up, before I cream right through my  pants!" Amber exclaimed as she jumped up and peeled her tight faded blue jeans off.  My heart raced with excitement as I obeyed eagerly, and when Amber sat heavily on my upturned face my tongue gently bathed her sweet pussy.  In no time she was exploding in multiple orgasms, but when I tried to work my way up Amber stopped my progress with a palm on the top of my head holding me down at her crotch.  "Nu-uh Johnny boy, that's all you get!" and as I obediently lowered my face back down I heard her giggle as she tousled my hair with her fingers as she said "that's a good Johnny boy, better behave yourself if you expect to have Josh accept your presence - and he better!" as she ended her statement with a threatening tone.

The cruel chastity device that Amber put on me not only prevented me from having sex or an orgasm, it was incredibly painful whenever I started to get an erection.  So I guess my body and mind learned from the hurting experiences quickly, because in no time it seemed like I'd lost my ability to have an erection and I seemed to enter a new, deeper level of frustration and agony as I tried to cope with my unrequited desires for the Goddess Amber had become in my frequent fantasies. 

I had been cleaning Ambers' place and doing her shopping and other errands which weren't so bad, but when she started having me do things for Joshua like pick up his cleaning and clean his place, his car, run errands for him, etc. it was all I could do to control myself and not protest.  Whenever I gave the least little sign of discomfort, though, Amber would make some comment like "ooooh, you are such a blessing!" and I would swell with pride as I repressed my frustration.

Then we seemed to go through a period of weeks without me even being given the chance to worship and pleasure Amber orally, so when Amber said she wanted me to make dinner for her one evening at her place because she felt like spending some time home I eagerly agreed.  "Thanks Johnny, make that health special Artichoke Spaghetti with Wheatballs Marinara dish that's so delicious, I told Joshua about it and I'm dying to have him taste it!"  When I joked that with her appetite and mine there may not be much left for him Amber turned and looked at me with an expression of genuine shock.  "What are you talking about, little Johnny, the dinner's for me and Josh, you'll be the cook and waiter and YOU'LL be the one eating the leftovers!"

Then Amber started making comments about how maybe I couldn't handle the type of relationship we had and perhaps we should just not see each other at all anymore, and I backtracked quickly as I assured Amber I was willing to do whatever would make her happy.  Seeing her beautiful smile cross her lips once again eased my fears, and I rushed to finish scrubbing her bathroom floor tiles so I could get everything needed for the dinner.

Before Joshua arrived Amber sat me down and explained that he had expressed some misgivings when she'd told him about her relationship with me.  "Now you and I both know you're no competition for him since I've already described his magnificent endowment and technique, but you know how these "macho" guys are.  So like, I figured if you wore a frilly apron and curtseyed every time you entered and left the room it would reassure Josh that "little Johnny" is no competition for him!"

I was appalled at hearing Ambers' words and it must have shown on my facial expression because Amber got this pouty look on her face and whined "oh come on Johnny, it will make me so happy."  What could I say?  As soon as I agreed Amber went right back into her no-nonsense mode and hustled me off to be sure everything was spotless and the meal would be perfect.  My instructions were to speak only when spoken to, be very deferential and refer to her as Miss Amber,  His title would be Master Joshua!

The evening was a big success for Amber, but pure torture for me as I felt like one of those eunuch slaves from the olden days. From being their waiter presenting the different courses in silent servitude to standing respectfully, towel draped over my arm and wearing that stupid apron as I stood ready to refill a wine glass or remove their plates when they finished (with a feminine curtsey that always brought out a giggle from Amber and a derisive snort from Josh), I was the perfect servant on the outside as I writhed in agony on the inside.  When they retired to the living room love seat I quickly cleared the table so I could continue to fulfill my role as servant only there for Amber's pleasure (which she had repeatedly explained to me meant Joshuas' as well), and approached them as they reclined on the love seat in front of the entertainment center.

My heart ached in jealous jags of pain as I saw Amber curled into a contented ball nestled in the strong arms and massive chest of Joshua as they formed a "spooning" cuddle.  Determined to play my part for the benefit and enjoyment of Amber, I affected a slight british accent as I spoke to them: "I hope the meal was satisfactory and acceptable to the Master and Miss's tastes, and I've prepared some pastries and coffee if it please the Master and Miss?"

Expecting some appreciation for my efforts to entertain and amuse them, I was surprised when they spoke to each other and referred to me in the third person: "you see Josh, I told you he is nothing for you to worry about.  The only reason I have him around is for convenience - and amusement, hee hee hee!" Amber said as she nuzzled into Josh's hairy armpit.  I stood there before them holding the tray with the cookies and coffee feeling like an absolute fool even as I struggled to maintain my outward appearance of docility, managing a weak smile as Josh looked up at me and chuckled.  "He is obedient, but he's also pretty much of a dimwit, isn't he, babe?"  Then he snapped his fingers authoritatively as he looked up at me with a sneer and said "yo' douchebag, get down here on your knees in front of us so we can reach the stuff, d'uh?" as they both giggled.

Too ashamed to meet their eyes, I kept mine lowered as I knelt down before them and held out the tray with the coffee and cookies, but quickly realized they had lost interest in me altogether as they kissed and spoke in intimate whispers while they enjoyed the coffee and pastries offered on my tray as I became their human coffee table!